As I aim to have a website with helpful information, I can’t deny the fact that I’m also influenced by other websites that I follow here on WordPress. Those are mostly the ones that are blog-type and anecdotal.
As a writer, and as someone who doesn’t like to burden my friends with my thoughts and feelings, I find myself turning more to my website, Easy Light Sources, to express myself.
All in all, my doing so is not particularly a bad thing. I guess I am aware of it now because when I first began writing for Easy Light Sources, I made a mental choice to not write in first person for the majority of the content.
But right now in my life, I’m going through a lot. My entire family is. Some of the happier topics that I have planned, I’m actually struggling with.
After this post on completion, I’m still feeling pretty good. But, things are changing, now.
Spiritual Readings indicate it’s all good on all fronts. But the details of reality don’t look so well. Personally I am confused – how much is mind over matter? I don’t know who to trust, which is also a hard reality to deal with.
Well, that’s me talking about myself some more.
When Easy Light Sources started, it was food focused – fruits and vegetables. I’d like to go back to that but my life is in a different place.
I have Easy Light Sources book manuscripts I’d like to have printed but I don’t have the cash. I’d also like to upgrade this website to sell ebooks but as they say, it takes money to make money.
Discussing this with someone else ended up with them offering me roles in their adult movies. He even offered to pay for me to have breast implants.
As tempting as fast money is, it’s the integrity of my mind and soul that won’t allow that to happen. Luckily the friend respects my status as a role model and he didn’t push the opportunity too much.
There seems to be a stark contrast in terms of what I believe versus what I’m able to materialize. For this reason, I choose to only write on what I know to be real in life.
I think that authenticity is not always rewarded. Not to be fake, but there is strength in only showing the desirable sides of yourself. Especially and moreso when no one really knows who you are.
I’d really like this to be the last personal informational post. This site was not created to be a personal blog so I’ll do my best to keep it on track. Thanks, tho, for being here for me to talk too. I’ll find out later if it was for the best or worst.