Sometimes you may reject a label / being labeled because it may box you in.
However it will also free you when you realize that you can have more than one label! You can have tons! Choose the ones that you enjoy the most so that when it comes up, you will be proud with that label.
I received a new label from Lord God recently. As you can probably tell by the title.
I am PROUD to be a Nazarene but there’s an even better part to the story- God and Jesus are also happy to have me in the fold.
I’ll explain –
Before becoming a Christian, I already wanted to change my name because I already evolved.
When Jesus became my brother and The Lord God started speaking to me, I told them that I would like a Christian name.
It didn’t come right away. I actually changed my name 2 times before going before changing my name officially.
The first name I had was Natalie, which means Christmas. And Freeman, which is obvious what it means lol
The second name change was more whimsical.
Then a few days before I was to meet the Judge, God gave me a last name straight from the Bible. Great!!
My middle name dropped on me maybe 7 or 8 minutes before I signed it officially. That’s Ariel! Which is also in the Holy Bible, although I didn’t know it at that time.
Finally, my first name is phonetically similar to Nazareth with one less syllable.
If you’re unfamiliar, Nazareth is the town where Jesus Christ is from.
And so a month after changing my name, God told me that He named me after Jesus’s hometown. Then I read the Nazirine Vow and I realized that that’s already my lifestyle! And then God was like “DUH that’s because you’re a Nazarene, Nadirah.”
The Nazirine Vow is to abstain from drinking wine (I’m a beer person anyway, wine gives me a headache lol), dont cut my hair (dreadlocks over here) and finally, don’t hang around dead stuff. Which I dont really do, I’m a vegetarian! (That’s a joke lol God wasn’t really referring to animals.)
Hmm and then what else? There was one more thing I wanted to share here…
Oh okay. So being a Nazarene… Jesus said that He was not able to perform many miracles in His town because people didn’t believe in Him there. I definitely relate to that because I’m from a community of people who turned out to be not very kind to me.
So I relate to Jesus in that way.
But the best part about Nazarenes? They were with Jesus in the beginning! They believed in Him and so the Nazarenes are the first Christians by that name. However since there is a church by that name and I am not associated with them, I spell my title as Nazarine.
I’m so honored that Lord God saw fit to name me and also bring me into the fold. I feel so much Best Friend energy with them!
I wasn’t alive when Jesus was walking around teaching BUT when I read his stories, my soul is there.
For example – when Jesus got arrested, the disciples left Him because that’s what they were supposed to do. But when I read that, I was heartbroken. All of Jesus’s friends left Him in the hands of those awful people?!?!?! No way. I told Jesus, “I would not have left you.” And then I think that is the first time I saw Jesus and God looking down on me as physical energetic figures.
And then later that night, I was with unbelievers and they were mean to me in a way. So I didn’t want to walk past them. And then Jesus came to me and He reminded me of the exact moment that the disciples left him and I told him that I wouldn’t leave him. He said “Stay with me” & He was teaching me what HE had to go though. And He said, “those people were awful and ridiculed me, Nadirah. I DIED. These people may be mean, but they’re not going to kill you.”
And so that gave me the strength to walk past those mean people. Lol.
Jesus helped to heal me as well. This is more recently but not this month.
I was dealing with feelings of low self-worth. I was crying and sad. I had doubts that I was working hard enough to deserve the good things that God gives. I talked to God about it. He is so patient.
Jesus came to me and He told me that I am worthy. He reminded me that The Lord knows all about what I have been though and His presence was so strong as He told me that I am worthy of love and most importantly, I am worthy of having peace and rest in my mind.
And The Lord is pleased with that. Thank you Jesus!
Lord God is so pleased that I listen to Jesus because that means that I follow His Will.
I’m not perfect at it but I really do look up to Jesus. I wasn’t kidding when I said He was my brother lol and now I see that, as a Nazarene Christian, all of the spiritual energies that I believe in also now recognize me as a Holy Spirit as well.
GOD IS so kind. Never forget that!
Thanks for reading