I am a Nazarene now. Thanks for reading ๐Ÿ˜‰

Sometimes you may reject a label / being labeled because it may box you in.

However it will also free you when you realize that you can have more than one label! You can have tons! Choose the ones that you enjoy the most so that when it comes up, you will be proud with that label.

I received a new label from Lord God recently. As you can probably tell by the title.

I am PROUD to be a Nazarene but there’s an even better part to the story- God and Jesus are also happy to have me in the fold.

I’ll explain –

Before becoming a Christian, I already wanted to change my name because I already evolved.

When Jesus became my brother and The Lord God started speaking to me, I told them that I would like a Christian name.

It didn’t come right away. I actually changed my name 2 times before going before changing my name officially.

The first name I had was Natalie, which means Christmas. And Freeman, which is obvious what it means lol

The second name change was more whimsical.

Then a few days before I was to meet the Judge, God gave me a last name straight from the Bible. Great!!

My middle name dropped on me maybe 7 or 8 minutes before I signed it officially. That’s Ariel! Which is also in the Holy Bible, although I didn’t know it at that time.

Finally, my first name is phonetically similar to Nazareth with one less syllable.

If you’re unfamiliar, Nazareth is the town where Jesus Christ is from.

And so a month after changing my name, God told me that He named me after Jesus’s hometown. Then I read the Nazirine Vow and I realized that that’s already my lifestyle! And then God was like “DUH that’s because you’re a Nazarene, Nadirah.”

The Nazirine Vow is to abstain from drinking wine (I’m a beer person anyway, wine gives me a headache lol), dont cut my hair (dreadlocks over here) and finally, don’t hang around dead stuff. Which I dont really do, I’m a vegetarian! (That’s a joke lol God wasn’t really referring to animals.)

Hmm and then what else? There was one more thing I wanted to share here…

Oh okay. So being a Nazarene… Jesus said that He was not able to perform many miracles in His town because people didn’t believe in Him there. I definitely relate to that because I’m from a community of people who turned out to be not very kind to me.

So I relate to Jesus in that way.

But the best part about Nazarenes? They were with Jesus in the beginning! They believed in Him and so the Nazarenes are the first Christians by that name. However since there is a church by that name and I am not associated with them, I spell my title as Nazarine.

I’m so honored that Lord God saw fit to name me and also bring me into the fold. I feel so much Best Friend energy with them!

I wasn’t alive when Jesus was walking around teaching BUT when I read his stories, my soul is there.

For example – when Jesus got arrested, the disciples left Him because that’s what they were supposed to do. But when I read that, I was heartbroken. All of Jesus’s friends left Him in the hands of those awful people?!?!?! No way. I told Jesus, “I would not have left you.” And then I think that is the first time I saw Jesus and God looking down on me as physical energetic figures.

And then later that night, I was with unbelievers and they were mean to me in a way. So I didn’t want to walk past them. And then Jesus came to me and He reminded me of the exact moment that the disciples left him and I told him that I wouldn’t leave him. He said “Stay with me” & He was teaching me what HE had to go though. And He said, “those people were awful and ridiculed me, Nadirah. I DIED. These people may be mean, but they’re not going to kill you.”

And so that gave me the strength to walk past those mean people. Lol.

Jesus helped to heal me as well. This is more recently but not this month.

I was dealing with feelings of low self-worth. I was crying and sad. I had doubts that I was working hard enough to deserve the good things that God gives. I talked to God about it. He is so patient.

Jesus came to me and He told me that I am worthy. He reminded me that The Lord knows all about what I have been though and His presence was so strong as He told me that I am worthy of love and most importantly, I am worthy of having peace and rest in my mind.

And The Lord is pleased with that. Thank you Jesus!

Lord God is so pleased that I listen to Jesus because that means that I follow His Will.

I’m not perfect at it but I really do look up to Jesus. I wasn’t kidding when I said He was my brother lol and now I see that, as a Nazarene Christian, all of the spiritual energies that I believe in also now recognize me as a Holy Spirit as well.

GOD IS so kind. Never forget that!

Thanks for reading

How To Hear The Sound Of God’s Voice (using the Holy Bible!)

I’ve been having a deep spiritual moment for the past 3-6 months. It keeps getting deeper, especially after realizing Jesus the Christ is also Lord God Almighty!

I want to tell you all about the spiritual journey BUT I also want to get to the point of this post so here we go

The title is: How to hear The Voice of God (in your head!) Using a Holy Bible

There are 2 levels to hearing The Voice of The Lord

Level 1 – The Voice while you read the Bible

Level 2 – Level 1 and other times too

The requirement is that you’ll read the Holy Bible.

Level 2 is completely up to The Lord and His relationship hanging out with you!

Have you read the Holy Bible before?

Many of the Old Testament stories are people who were stubborn and mean to God but The Lord usually helped them anyway.

And God was pleased when everyone respectfully recognized Him as Almighty.

The Voice of God may be considered a frequency. When you read the Holy Bible, The Lord hears you.

So I suggest that you read parts of the Holy Bible that show God being happy ๐Ÿ™‚

And then read the parts where God is an angry blaze of fire ready to destroy!

I used the above examples because that is easily accessible for everyone to try.

And so that is how you will be able to hear Gods voice in your head. If it is THE LORDS WILL His voice will be unmistakably Holy.


If it doesn’t work immediately, practice patience and trust The Lord. People have been mean to God in the past so He and Jesus judge your heart to see how they will proceed with you.

The intensity of The Voice varies according to your relationship with The Lord. If you can feel His Love and love Him sincerely, u should be good. Clear your head probably.

GOD uses very strong language and it’s heavy sometimes.

This will make me sound like a pansy but – even seeing the word ‘Evil’ will repel me from reading particular verses! The “Fear of God” words are like daggers. But the “Love of God” words are like emoji pillows. Lol

God IS pleased with me and I am so humbled.

So I humbly offer the suggestion of “Read the Bible” to get closer to God.

Remember when I wrote that you can get closer to God by thinking about Him? It’s like that.

Read a Holy Bible chapter that starts “THE LORD SAID” and read what He says. The entire book is God’s words. I learned today that he trusted the prophets to write the books. And so I have to give a shout out to the Prophet Moses too. He wrote 5 books in the Holy Bible! The first ones! Ayeee Go Moses!

So for God to talk to you at other times
You really should ASK GOD!

Journey’s journey

Journey’s Greatest Hits have been playing on repeat so often that I have to pay homage.

As a legendary band, they have a unique band story throughout the 40 years that they’ve been creating art for the world.

Their Wikipedia, and countless other news articles, are full of information that I read some of. I advise you to do the same if their music speaks to you!

I was meditating with God and we were reflecting on Journey’s music while listening to the Greatest Hits album on Tidal… and so here are some things that are interesting about Journey’s journey.

1) They have so many 80’s hits. And Journey’s songs are also remarkably meaningful. The lyrics are top notch and then the voice arts from Stephen Perry (and now Arnel Pineda) take it over the top. He can really sing and it comes from a cool place.

2) and because of that quality, it’s okay that Stephen went his separate ways. I’m so thankful for what they’ve created! It’s divine, for sure.

3) I see major blessings that Journey was blessed with a second lead singer, that has a singing style so similar to the original Stephen Perry. That’s a rare instance and that shows God smiling on Journey.

I’m telling you the truth, Journey’s songs are really next level of you consider dimensions in music.

The LYRICS too and importantly.

When I listened to their GREATEST HITS album, there were some songs that I was surprised to hear, like Who’s Crying Now and Send Her My Love.6

My favorite song? Faithfully for right now. But come on, Steve Perry’s voice is a top ten Gem on every song.

I’d say all of my favorite Journey songs were released before I was born. Timeless, classic, perfection.

I’d also say that God is also pleased with Journey’s music. I can listen to The Greatest Hits on repeat and it’s all good. [By contrast, there are some violent songs that I cannot listen to on repeat, regardless how much I like it]

I wonder what it was like in the studio when Steve Perry recorded Faithfully.

It is overwhelming for me to think about how many people feel joy, peace, and comfort when listening to Faithfully, Open Arms, and all of Journey’s other songs that they love. Kip

Well, that’s all for my notes! Last night, the prophet Moses revealed to me in a dream that I should share more of my light with others. What He showed me was a house that was luminous inside with moonlight and we stood on the outside. Moses and I contemplated- how can that house share their special luminosity with those on the outside.

4ever yours, faithfully

Faith is leaning into whoever or whatever is there for you.

Can you see your faith?

It is a JOURNEY because nothing becomes set in stone. Faith must always have life. Building upon and making it stronger- only stronger.

Or it may stand still.

Through space & time. Always another show. Wondering where I am. Lost without you.

Faith on other people is better when all people lean into each other equally.

Faith is impossible to take lightly. Real faith is need-based.

More casual and we can call it hope.

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Feminist or Feminine Energy

The term Feminist has become a polarizing entity. Some people are of the mind that everyone should be a feminist – men and women. People who identity as a feminist are said to support equal pay for both genders, equal opportunities, and a general reject of stereotypes that say that a man is superior to a woman. Please correct me if I am wrong.

On the other hand, Feminine Energy is less about social justice and equality. While feminine energy building activities can be a source of bonding for people – it can just as much be an individual pursuit.

Seems to me, a person can roll around in all the feminine energy that they want. Especially behind closed doors. “Feminine Energy” is being left a little open here because it can mean different things to different people.

On the other hand, being a feminist almost requires an identifier to be open about it. Can you be a feminist without telling people you support equality between men and women? No, it doesn’t work that way. It’s like another social issue that I don’t really talk about here – racism. If you are against racism then you kind of HAVE TO openly stand against it. If you don’t speak against it, racist people and non-racist people will assume that you’re okay with it.

What do feminine energy and feminist … people…. have in common? Well, women in general have a reputation of being heavy on the emotional side of life. That’s a huge commonality. You have to have some type of emotional feelings toward being a feminist, if that’s how you identify.

Whether it’s true or not that women are more emotional, a woman who exudes feminine energy is totally seen as more delicate and sensitive. There is nothing wrong with that and if you think that’s there is then you need to reevaluate where your opinion comes from.

Exuding feminine energy is even a requirement for women who want to live a certain kind of lifestyle. For example, if a woman wants to avoid manual labor as an occupation then being feminine sets that woman on the path for a career that will allow her to wear whatever she wants and to behave as delicate as she wants.

On the other hand, a woman who wants to work a construction job automatically knows that she won’t be able to wear fancy shoes or silk clothing – it’ll have to be the rough attire of Carhartt pants and steel toe boots.

Of course, she can code switch if she wants. I’m just saying that a woman who wants to have long nails and a woman who wants to pour concrete may have to choose.

A Feminist does not always give off a feminine vibe. Where feminine energy asks a woman to be soft spoken, a hardcore feminist may be outwardly harsh in the face of some kind of gender discrimination.

The keyword here is hardcore. There are levels.

In this world, we all should be a feminist in the face of obvious toxic anti-female behavior.

And then, we should also become more feminine when we feel our energy getting chaotic or frazzled. I suppose class and grace fall into the side of feminine energy as well.

As men and women both have feminine and masculine energy, so goes the realization that there is a time and a place where one energy should be more “loud” than the other.

Funny enough, sometimes the louder that feminist equality is said, the less feminine it actually presents itself.

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