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Numbers – Chapter 9 (Written by Moses)

Without a doubt, the Holy Bible was written in a coded manner. It’s awe-inspiring the way that it is written and numerically noted.

My Lord God is so incredibly kind to have made it so easy to identify the various verses and scriptures so that we can all be on the same page when referencing the various parts.

As an added bonus, I also enjoy the different versions of The Holy Bible. There are so many! My son and I have different Bibles so as we read the same chapters, we can say “what does it say in yours?” And spark a conversation.

No matter what we have going on (sometimes parenting is not very fun), we can turn to the Lord God in conversation and happiness immediately joins the room. It seems that the Lord enjoys hanging out with me and my honey bunny – my son and I rejoice over the kindness and love that the Lord God and Jesus gives to us. It’s so great that I have a small companion that I can always talk to about The Lord. What a gift! We don’t fear The Lord, it’s all love.

So to get to the topic of this post- I just wanted to share with my readers one of my favorite parts of The Holy Bible.

I still have not read the entire text – I read it depending on what The Lord directs me to.

Most recently, the Lord and Jesus introduced me to Moses. It’s so nice. As I read Moses’ stories, it’s easy to see how much the Lord enjoyed hanging with Moses!

If you didn’t know – Moses is the author of the first 5 books of The Holy Bible – Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy. (The last one is fun to say!)

So – NUMBERS CHAPTER 9, Verse 15-23 is my favorite. I didn’t have a strict reason why until my BFF asked me what I liked so much about it.

My response to Him was that I enjoyed how lighthearted it is. THE LORD has good humor and dry humor and so I do believe that He directed Moses to write that verse because he knew that Me, and others, would enjoy it.

Yes, it is repetitive and appears to say the same thing over and over. But the sentences in the sequence are not exactly the same. I came upon this at The Lords direction and it allowed me to be fully immersed into what the events that occurred in Numbers and Exodus.

The Lord, My God, is so powerful. Can you imagine what it would have been like to travel with The Lord? For Him to have a physical presence in your midst.

I tell you the truth – if I was amongst those people, I would have always been found at the Tent of the Lord’s presence. Day and night, I would have been at the Lord’s Tent.

Whether day time or night time, Ariel would be at Lord God’s Tent. If it was cold at night, I would have been found at the Tent that the Lord heated with his fiery presence.

If God rested in the Tent for 2 days or 2 months, I would have always been at The Lord’s Tent. His Holy Tent and cloudy presence is where, I, Ariel, would be.

And now I have to remember – always – that the Lord Almighty is with me. Always. He’s with all of us who love him and follow the benevolent example of Jesus Christ.

If you expected me to quote the actual verse here in this post, I am sorry to disappoint you. While it would be completely within my right to do so, I hope that instead, maybe you will open the Holy Bible and read it on your own. And then, maybe you will keep reading some other parts, too!

However, a small voice inside of me encourages me to record that Biblical text in this here post – for the ones who are reading that would not open a Holy Bible. So here it is:

15-16 On the day the Tent of the Lord’s presence was set up, a cloud came and covered it. At night the cloud looked like fire. 17 Whenever the cloud lifted, the people of Israel broke camp, and they set up camp again in the place where the cloud came down. 18 The people broke camp at the command of the Lord, and at his command they set up camp. As long as the cloud stayed over the Tent, they stayed in the same camp. 19 When the cloud stayed over the Tent for a long time, they obeyed the Lord and did not move on. 20 Sometimes the cloud remained over the Tent for only a few days; in any case, they remained in camp or moved, according to the command of the Lord. 21 Sometimes the cloud remained only from evening until morning, and they moved on as soon as the cloud lifted. Whenever the cloud lifted, they moved on. 22 Whether it was two days, a month, a year, or longer, as long as the cloud remained over the Tent, they did not move on; but when it lifted, they moved. 23 They set up camp and broke camp in obedience to the commands which the Lord gave through Moses.

Yo. I don’t know if I could love the Lord more even if I tried. He is so beautiful. Thank you Lord for being with me and allowing me to be with You.

I am a Nazarene now. Thanks for reading 😉

Sometimes you may reject a label / being labeled because it may box you in.

However it will also free you when you realize that you can have more than one label! You can have tons! Choose the ones that you enjoy the most so that when it comes up, you will be proud with that label.

I received a new label from Lord God recently. As you can probably tell by the title.

I am PROUD to be a Nazarene but there’s an even better part to the story- God and Jesus are also happy to have me in the fold.

I’ll explain –

Before becoming a Christian, I already wanted to change my name because I already evolved.

When Jesus became my brother and The Lord God started speaking to me, I told them that I would like a Christian name.

It didn’t come right away. I actually changed my name 2 times before going before changing my name officially.

The first name I had was Natalie, which means Christmas. And Freeman, which is obvious what it means lol

The second name change was more whimsical.

Then a few days before I was to meet the Judge, God gave me a last name straight from the Bible. Great!!

My middle name dropped on me maybe 7 or 8 minutes before I signed it officially. That’s Ariel! Which is also in the Holy Bible, although I didn’t know it at that time.

Finally, my first name is phonetically similar to Nazareth with one less syllable.

If you’re unfamiliar, Nazareth is the town where Jesus Christ is from.

And so a month after changing my name, God told me that He named me after Jesus’s hometown. Then I read the Nazirine Vow and I realized that that’s already my lifestyle! And then God was like “DUH that’s because you’re a Nazarene, Nadirah.”

The Nazirine Vow is to abstain from drinking wine (I’m a beer person anyway, wine gives me a headache lol), dont cut my hair (dreadlocks over here) and finally, don’t hang around dead stuff. Which I dont really do, I’m a vegetarian! (That’s a joke lol God wasn’t really referring to animals.)

Hmm and then what else? There was one more thing I wanted to share here…

Oh okay. So being a Nazarene… Jesus said that He was not able to perform many miracles in His town because people didn’t believe in Him there. I definitely relate to that because I’m from a community of people who turned out to be not very kind to me.

So I relate to Jesus in that way.

But the best part about Nazarenes? They were with Jesus in the beginning! They believed in Him and so the Nazarenes are the first Christians by that name. However since there is a church by that name and I am not associated with them, I spell my title as Nazarine.

I’m so honored that Lord God saw fit to name me and also bring me into the fold. I feel so much Best Friend energy with them!

I wasn’t alive when Jesus was walking around teaching BUT when I read his stories, my soul is there.

For example – when Jesus got arrested, the disciples left Him because that’s what they were supposed to do. But when I read that, I was heartbroken. All of Jesus’s friends left Him in the hands of those awful people?!?!?! No way. I told Jesus, “I would not have left you.” And then I think that is the first time I saw Jesus and God looking down on me as physical energetic figures.

And then later that night, I was with unbelievers and they were mean to me in a way. So I didn’t want to walk past them. And then Jesus came to me and He reminded me of the exact moment that the disciples left him and I told him that I wouldn’t leave him. He said “Stay with me” & He was teaching me what HE had to go though. And He said, “those people were awful and ridiculed me, Nadirah. I DIED. These people may be mean, but they’re not going to kill you.”

And so that gave me the strength to walk past those mean people. Lol.

Jesus helped to heal me as well. This is more recently but not this month.

I was dealing with feelings of low self-worth. I was crying and sad. I had doubts that I was working hard enough to deserve the good things that God gives. I talked to God about it. He is so patient.

Jesus came to me and He told me that I am worthy. He reminded me that The Lord knows all about what I have been though and His presence was so strong as He told me that I am worthy of love and most importantly, I am worthy of having peace and rest in my mind.

And The Lord is pleased with that. Thank you Jesus!

Lord God is so pleased that I listen to Jesus because that means that I follow His Will.

I’m not perfect at it but I really do look up to Jesus. I wasn’t kidding when I said He was my brother lol and now I see that, as a Nazarene Christian, all of the spiritual energies that I believe in also now recognize me as a Holy Spirit as well.

GOD IS so kind. Never forget that!

Thanks for reading

How To Hear The Sound Of God’s Voice (using the Holy Bible!)

I’ve been having a deep spiritual moment for the past 3-6 months. It keeps getting deeper, especially after realizing Jesus the Christ is also Lord God Almighty!

I want to tell you all about the spiritual journey BUT I also want to get to the point of this post so here we go

The title is: How to hear The Voice of God (in your head!) Using a Holy Bible

There are 2 levels to hearing The Voice of The Lord

Level 1 – The Voice while you read the Bible

Level 2 – Level 1 and other times too

The requirement is that you’ll read the Holy Bible.

Level 2 is completely up to The Lord and His relationship hanging out with you!

Have you read the Holy Bible before?

Many of the Old Testament stories are people who were stubborn and mean to God but The Lord usually helped them anyway.

And God was pleased when everyone respectfully recognized Him as Almighty.

The Voice of God may be considered a frequency. When you read the Holy Bible, The Lord hears you.

So I suggest that you read parts of the Holy Bible that show God being happy 🙂

And then read the parts where God is an angry blaze of fire ready to destroy!

I used the above examples because that is easily accessible for everyone to try.

And so that is how you will be able to hear Gods voice in your head. If it is THE LORDS WILL His voice will be unmistakably Holy.


If it doesn’t work immediately, practice patience and trust The Lord. People have been mean to God in the past so He and Jesus judge your heart to see how they will proceed with you.

The intensity of The Voice varies according to your relationship with The Lord. If you can feel His Love and love Him sincerely, u should be good. Clear your head probably.

GOD uses very strong language and it’s heavy sometimes.

This will make me sound like a pansy but – even seeing the word ‘Evil’ will repel me from reading particular verses! The “Fear of God” words are like daggers. But the “Love of God” words are like emoji pillows. Lol

God IS pleased with me and I am so humbled.

So I humbly offer the suggestion of “Read the Bible” to get closer to God.

Remember when I wrote that you can get closer to God by thinking about Him? It’s like that.

Read a Holy Bible chapter that starts “THE LORD SAID” and read what He says. The entire book is God’s words. I learned today that he trusted the prophets to write the books. And so I have to give a shout out to the Prophet Moses too. He wrote 5 books in the Holy Bible! The first ones! Ayeee Go Moses!

So for God to talk to you at other times
You really should ASK GOD!

4ever yours, faithfully

Faith is leaning into whoever or whatever is there for you.

Can you see your faith?

It is a JOURNEY because nothing becomes set in stone. Faith must always have life. Building upon and making it stronger- only stronger.

Or it may stand still.

Through space & time. Always another show. Wondering where I am. Lost without you.

Faith on other people is better when all people lean into each other equally.

Faith is impossible to take lightly. Real faith is need-based.

More casual and we can call it hope.

Dolphins are the Big Cats of the Sea!

Do you ever have big thoughts while doing mundane activities?

While painting is not mundane, that’s what I was doing while I was thinking about dolphins. I’ve just learned how to create them!

I started thinking about the fun and smart personalities of dolphins, the beauty of whales, and the cunning of Orcas/Killer whales.

And then of course narwhals are pretty wonderful to look at. As well as hammerhead sharks.

These huge animals are amazing. They also live in the sea and ocean along with smaller fish like salmon and halibut, cool things like clams and oysters, and more cute animals like sea otters and octopus.

It’s very similar to big cats like cheetahs and lions living on land.

Dolphins would be like the Lions of the bunch. They’re just a bit different from the rest.

Another fun fact: I took a Harry Potter quiz to see what my Patronus is and I got the animal Dolphin! (I’m also a Ravenclaw if anyone is curious 😉

Anyway, one of my favorite things do do when God’s presence is strong with me is to create something beautiful and letting Him teach me about his favorite things 🙂

I love being with God ❤

The Abyss

There are some interesting misconceptions about what we would call “The Abyss.”

The abyss symbolizes a form of nothingness. An open door whose only entry requirement is that you agree to surrender all control over your body while still having a free mind, so to speak.

One form of the abyss is getting anesthesia during surgery. I’d argue that it is the abyss that Michael Jackson was addicted to, not the plastic surgery itself. His mind was brilliant, I am 1000% sure he had unique experiences while he was asleep.

A little over a week ago, I published a content about the abyss. It was in the mirror meditation post. I did not realize it at the time but it is the abyss of your eyes that allow a person to see into their own eternal soul.

Extreme drug use is also an abyss. For example, Heroin would be an abyss experience. If you do enough you will lose control over your body but your mind is more free to relax from pain and stress. [not recommended tho].

The abyss settings that I am most drawn to are the ones that present themselves as underwater waterfalls. It’s a form of exhilaration that I feel when I imagine being down there. No, I can’t even swim. Of course it is God’s will in my life that allows for my bravery to be present in my imagination.

It seems easy to be brave in your imagination but it is not. For some reason and probably more reasons, God sees the limits that people put on their minds. He can show you all the signs that you’re on the right path, doing the right thing, and still you will doubt. It’s not all your fault. We live in a “I got bills to pay” world.


God could even speak to you in person and a majority of you would still be afraid or would still have doubts.

Jesus said, “happy are those who believe without seeing me.”

But it’s beginning to seem like not many people believe that God is around in a face to face context. Even people who believe they are God’s “PET” still imagine God as an energy in a far away abyss. God could have given you his phone number and you’d say “Is it really him?!”

GOD will visit you in the abyss of our souls.

But when He looks into the abyss of most of these souls on Earth – He doesn’t like it there.

For the ones who He does like – He has sent the Holy Spirit and they still doubt because they still have limits on what they expect from God.

It’s not a critique on anyone but it makes me feel lonely. Thankfully I have God and Jesus as my best friends. But where are the people who I can talk to freely about God? Who wants to talk about what God’s voice sounds like? or what instruments remind Him of what elements? That’s why God has given me my son, I believe. His name literally means “promised by God” anyway lol.

God likes to talk to me because We like to talk about the same things. I can hear God and He is thankful to have created someone like me. All glory goes to GOD tho, I am overwhelmed with the thoughts and ideas and combinations that God tells me. He whispers His secrets to me because he loves me. He loves me because I like to spread HIS word, I like to talk about His creations, and the abyss of past depression has allowed God to see into my soul.

I’ve been through judgment day – judged down to the atoms in my soul and lucky for me I passed!

And so I am a true Aerial. Remember when my name was Star? I can see from the sky. I can look down across beautiful islands and see the abyss of underwater waterfalls.

Outer space is another abyss – the abyss of which we have all come from on a soul level.

From the point of view of this Ariel, The solar system is a puzzle. It needs to be put together so that the system will work in harmony. It doesn’t matter who believes this – it is the truth of our galactic existence. You can look at the world and see how it is. Look into your hearts and ask yourself, does this world feel like a system that is working?

And then, who is going to put it right as it should be? God, is the answer. And Jesus. And their Helper, the Holy Spirit. It’s the compassion and care of The Holy Spirit that is the strongest component to trying to solve the puzzle. Otherwise God would say Fuck This Place and burn it all down. LOL. It’s funny but I’m not joking. But remember – Jesus and The Holy Spirit are just names and titles. GOD is ALMIGHTY and the only ONE.

Someone told me that everyone doesn’t have the same relationship with God that I do so here are some things about God – HE is funny. He has dry humor LOL he is so SWEET and compassionate! He sees His creations in combinations. His love is so unmatched by anything else. I aim to love myself as much as God loves me but that would be impossible because GOD is limitless. God is also tired and wants to rest. Have you read all the adventures of the OLD testament? That’s a lot for one creator to go though. I want to Hug God and hold him close and protect Him from that kind of pain. The pain of people loving him and then abandoning Him. The ones who go to church and talk about each other instead of talking about GOD. They say that they Love God but they don’t really trust Him. I know what it’s like and I know how God feels (if even only a portion of his depth of knowledge). I have been through a lot and I’m here for GOD first and foremost. and then I’ve written so much website content that I think even maybe I can rest for a while, too.